Why the social model of disability doesn't hold up for me

The reason I feel that the social model is insufficient comes down to one thing… my autism would still be disabling to me even if society were completely reconstructed to meet every one of my social needs. 

I am not disabled by my autism because of social constructs. 

I'm disabled by my autism because my brain is triggered into a state of extreme anxiety and distress by the mere existence of other humans. 

(People breathing "too loudly" near me is enough to give me heart palpitations.)

And even if no other humans existed on the planet with me, my brain would STILL be triggered and I would STILL be severely impacted by my brain wiring.

The only universe where my autism isn't triggering and disabling is one in which I, myself, do not exist.

THIS is what "autism is a disability" means. 

Even if it doesn't feel disabling to every autistic person, THIS is why the classification matters. 

For those of us who absolutely ARE disabled by our brain wiring. And there are a LOT of us.

If you have ever said to an autistic person that their autism wouldn't be a disability if the world were built for autistic people... I implore you... please don't. 

You are unintentionally gaslighting those of us who KNOW we would be disabled in ANY version of the world. 

No matter how many changes might hypothetically be made to accommodate our differences.

And please... PLEASE believe us.